Say Cheesee..

To my darling dearest,

This is the 2nd birthday we’ve celebrated together, 2nd of many more to come. I’m glad you’ve enjoyed the night out with our friends, and I’m sorry I didn’t make your specail day any more special. It’s been such a hectic night the night before, us getting home at 3am in the morning. I thought you weren’t really up for going out, so I skipped the whole day today, just spending time at home.. My xbox is really making you a homey person, eh? ahah

Well my darling, I would like to wish you every happiness, good health and prosperity (lame I know, but it’s really the best greetings around!). I wish that we could accomplish more as a couple, as a team. I love you, and every time I see you, I want to tell you that.

Like I’ve told you previously, please have patience, towards me, towards yourself, towards all others, as I anticipate a lot of waiting.

Love you lots! Seriously. =)

- Girl

Muakz to my ling.. poor ling still working n it’s almost midnight now.

WE’RE ENGAGED!! oh i just want to tell everyone i know that i’m so happy being with you.

thank you darling, for the ring, for the proposal.. for all that you’ve given me, for all that you are to me, and for all that we’ll have in our future together..

i want to let you know that you really mean a lot to me. and i will do whatever it takes to be the best wife i can to you.

love you, now and forever.. =)

-Girl

Lately i’ve been very moody at work.So moody that i was whining about everything yet not talking to many about it.I haven’t even felt like talking to my colleagues or joke with them despite their constant hoo-hahs around the office n wherever they went.

I was unsatisfied with my working conditions,my pay,my benefits,n how i was treated at work.Basically everything there was to complain.

My smarter other-half (as he would claim =p) had told me straight to my face that i’m experiencing pms,that my mood swings sort of always happen before my red blahs start to come down like the Niagra Falls.Okay i’m exaggerating,they’re not so scary.Anyway,today i found out that my darling may be right after all,coz my mood turned slightly better today,n today is the first day of my period..

I had a thought today,was looking at my ever growing tummy..”What if i was pregnant instead of getting fat?” “If i were,when did that happen?!” “What would i do?” At least a dozen questions popped out of my head until i had to come back to reality n get back to work.It was crazy..

Back to pms,i’ve always thought i was a high EQ person,perhaps i’m just self-proclaiming it.Do people with high EQ have pms?I thk my darling just turns cold towards me when he’s unwell or when he’s tired..Does that literally mean that he has pms too??

Haha..i just love him so much,i mean.. i llove u darling.. *wink* please don’t treat me cold when u’re sick or tired,i get sad like that.i dunno whether to continue to be chirpy n silly or to be solemn n serious..

Okay,it’s getting late.Chizziechick with her period here is getting hungry n will try to sleep now..i hope u get better soon enough darling..i just realised i forgot that u needed to get more water..sorry.. =(

Hope your water is enough to at least last u til tmr.Good night my baby..love u so much..

-Girl

We’ve been busy.. so busy that it’s getting so hard for us to spend time together.. alot of times it’s back to spending time online.. or texting each other.. I really miss you..

Today you were a no-show.. the concert was enjoyable. would definitely be better if you were around.. Am feelin blue-ish.. somehow knew you weren’t gonna make it in time for dinner and concert. i know u’re busy.. i know everyone’s really concerned about the deal.. but somehow not making time for even take-away dinner is unacceptable.. but that’s just me..

Somehow i have a feeling that you’d still have to work this weekend.. it jz reminds me of how i hate birthdays.. my birthdays to be exact.. i don’t expect this year to be any different from the last.. happy as i am with you, my dark moodswings do not go away. perhaps they do appear less often, but the effect is dire nonetheless..

My concerns you ask me.. let me share some..

1. you still have her stuffs in your room.. deadline is this weekend.. today is thursday..

2. u still have her messages in your phone.. and you told me you didn’t.. perhaps you forgot.. i don’t know..

3. the whole “we don’t have much money to stay somewhere nice” is really depressing..

4. “if we go on a holiday we’d have to delay getting a house” statements are made clear.. loud and clear. but we also need a break.

5. my parents don’t like the idea of me going over to your hometown to see your parents.. they think it’s not the custom, it’s not nice and they don’t like it.

6. i can’t think of number 6 right now, but it’s there somewhere..

7. i don’t know how many are there, but it’ll be there..

8. my ballooning figure is making me feel sad about myself.. i hate self-pity.. i feel fat and ugly.. and hungry.. all the time..

i can go on and on.. but i think 8 is enough for now. i should sleep. i still need to go to work tomorrow.. i hope my outstation work tmr is enjoyable.

good night darling.. i do love you..

Current count 115:115

-Girl

Today marks the day we’ve been together for half a year..

Happy 6-months my love.. *hugz*

We’ll have a nice meal later and perhaps a little snuggle to add on to our already cheesey intimate relationship…

I love you.

Current Count 92:92

-Girl

Yes today is Friday! Tomorrow my darling will be back from his hometown – Penang!! We’ll be reunited once again after a painfully long 8 days.. *warm*

I know 8 days isn’t exactly very long, but throughout this 8 days, so much has happened.. We’ve experienced many unhappy moments, and some happy ones. I’ve got my heart broken out of my own doing, and have upsetted my darling a lot. To this, I apologize to you, my love.. I guess sometimes when I get upset I do let it spiral downwards a bit and let everything loosen. To my defense, having your ex visit you on the 1st day of CNY without me around, PLUS all your relatives around does hit me rather hard. Especially when your relatives didn’t know about the break up when she was still in your house. It really isn’t fair to me, but there’s nothing I could’ve done to prevent it.

I really do hope you’d do something about it, and not let similar incidents happen in the future. Having incidents like that hit me time and time again really isn’t gonna do our relationship any good.

Anyway, I’m really looking forward to your return tomorrow. I hope you won’t be too tired to come over to my place tomorrow night. I want to spend more time with you, every single day..

Current count 90:90

-Girl