I guess the 2 phrases above don’t really go well together.
I know how you’ve been going thru the downs in your life lately – my busy-ness and the lack of time spent together are wearing you thin. After reading your previous post, i told myself that i have to buck up and give you the best i could – for you’ve been suffering alone all this while.
I told myself, for this year’s birthday, you will not be crying – because you have me..and our close bunch of friends to celebrate it with you. I really thought i could make you happy…
To me, it is a cardinal sin to make someone cries at his/her birthday – tears of joy is of course, a different scenario altogether. Today, tonight…i’ve commited that sin.
I’m truly sorry darling
- i’m sorry for lashing out at you when it’s clearly not your fault
- i’m sorry for being so selfish
- i’m sorry for being so childish in front of all your friends
- i’m sorry for making you cry…on your birthday
I do not know why i snapped just now. I just had enough of waiting i guess. I felt as if i’ve been treated as a fool.
Even after all my inconsidete actions, you, my darling, did not utter even a single word of dislike at me. You took it all upon yourself for causing my outburst.
Darling, what you said to me in the car, and how you still hold my hand after all i’ve done…make me realise that to love someone, is more than just wanting to care for that someone, you have to be able to accept and forgive all the shortcomings that are an integral part of that particular someone.
You, my darling, you’ve shown me that…
It’s up to me now, to do my part…
Happy Birthday, my beloved darling…
Current Count 118:118
- Repenting Boy
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